Lifeline

Ok so this poem comes from a very personal, frustrated place I wrote it a few years ago and read it to one of my co-workers and he wanted to give it to his then girlfriend to break up with her and he said this expressed exactly how he was feeling. I revised the ending because I couldn't find the original and wrote this from memory until I couldn't remember anymore, so I had to write a new ending.

I'm sinking in this re-la-tion-ship of despair

I just stare off into the cosmos indulged by the night blue sky

Why, questions are always answered with why

Love just ain't the same as she used to be

Incoherent phrases raise answers whose questions have not been posed

I'm supposed to be who I want to be or who you want me to be

And I've been trying

I've been dying for you to accept my prose

But I'll be damned if I'll damn my soul for your acceptance

Who do you expect me to be?

This poem doesn't have any stanzas so where's the break-up?

Make-ups are made much easier when we aren't always right

And I know I made a wrong turn somewhere

My navigational system has flu-like symptoms

And I haiku my passions on paper, excuse me,

You're still infecting my immunity

Your low dosage love just isn't enough anymore

I need you in higher quantities

Spill-proof my heart so if it drops it won't break as easily

Where did we go awry?

How did we board this ill fated ship destined for its destiny

This trip was never intentional

These high seas of hopelessness have taken over my course

Plot me a map that leads to your direction

But this isn't poetry

Where are the rhyming words?

That's what you think of me

Words that rhyme, not an individual expression

And that's what I'm sick of

Being mis-read

Don't read between the lines, there's nothing to interpret

I'm a walking mis-conception and you're a walking contradiction

That's what makes you good for me

So I'll sink until you save me

Because concrete doesn't have much buoyancy

And this two ton boulder hasn't yet been chiseled into who I pretend to be

So I'll keep pretending

If that's what you need from me.